U Never Had...

in the dark...all alone
another tear drips unto ur pillow..


ur broken heart bleeds pain into ur soul..






u wonder if u'll ever find happiness ...in the morning u'll dry ur tears..




and noone will ever know..










u try ur best to be strong..
but the night weakens ur will...


overcome by all the emotions that come rushing back
...u wonder if ull ever heal...


you tell urself...get it together...


you tell yourself....time will make it better...


you tell urself...you'll be okay


you tell urself....i'll find love someday...




but it hurts so bad...


Giving someone ur all...for so long...
only to have them turn around and do you so wrong...


now every smile is a bitter-sweet reminder of how happy he used to make u...


all around u ...restaurants...shops...places...he used to take u...


u shut ur eyes ...in an effort to stop the tears...and the memories


...ur mind tortures u with the last image of him....
she was in his arms...right where u used to be...


u want to hate him..but ur heart wont let u...
even tho ur mind condemns him...ur heart yearns for the love u used to see...














i notice ur puffy eyes...i want to ask...but i know i cant...
all i can do is ask if u slept well...and u alwais tell me "i did"


i notice u staring into the distance...and the sadness on ur face breaks my heart...wishing i could wipe away the tears before they even start behind ur eyelids...


how can i feel so strongly about a stranger?


but u shy away from me ...like a 5min convo means "danger"...




ure not a total stranger..we talk once in a while
u keep to urself...thats pretty much ur style


i'd be grateful to just be your friend...i just wanna be there for u...let me help...my eyes implore u...


ure like a beautiful bird ...with a broken wing...fluttering away everytime i try to come near to help u...i wish u would realize im not here to hurt u....




i adore u...


i think of silly things to say...just so i can see a smile rise on ur face...no matter how brief...


i wanna hold ur hand...and take walks with u...lean on me...i wanna be ur strong oak....ur tree that will never "leaf"


lol ...see what i mean?...


ur mind tells u we're all the same...
but ur heart longs to luv again...


i feel so helpless...cus i know uve been here before...
i know he said similar things...


how do you know im not like the rest..?


what can i do?...what can i say?..


i wish u could see into my heart...and realise ..all i want to do is love u...


this love is enough for the two of us...


cus when im with u...my heart beats to a different rhythmn...


u fill every moment with so much meaning


oh what a fool he was to let u go...


so many things i wish i could let you know










but words cant reach u...u wont even let me come close
feel like theres an insurmountable mountain inbetween me n the 1 i want the most...


and i think to myself....its a battle u cant win...let it be...
but my heart wont let go of u...it keeps whispering destiny...




so i'll stay right here...in ur face...im not going anywhere..
i'll help ur heart heal...and when u need me..i'll be right here...


and when ure ready...i'll give u good for every bad..
i'll pour out my heart into urs...fill u up with the love u never had...


i promise...