u got a new man now...

i'm happy for you...
and i wish u the best...






i really do...

and before i close this chapter
there are a few things i need to get off my chest










im constantly reflecting
weighing my intentions
trying my hardest not to be spiteful..








i admit i messed up
cus if i was doing everything i shouldve
that would be me..instead of him...lying beside u..












i hate to think about this
id rather just push it out of my mind
and move on...




but im constantly reminded
ure still on my facebook...on my twitter...bbm..still in my life
and i cant find it in me to break away..severe a bond that was once so strong..










So he cooks u dinner
makes u feel special
treats u in every way u think u deserve










i never cooked for u..never got the chance to
we never got a chance to see what couldve been
but in ur heart still smoulders a flame for me that only love couldve preserved












U waited for so long..
holding on to the memory of me
and believing in the promise of years to come














The distance between us couldnt keep u away from me
but in the end it was my unwillingness to open up to u...scar(r)ed to trust..i pushed u away into anothers arms












fuck him tho...










He kisses u with his lips
I kissed u with my soul..




he holds ur hand..
those same hands that held my heart






they still do...












u wore me down
i couldnt resist u
i knew u were the one
the moment i kissed u














when i held u in my arms my heart whispered "forever"
when u put ur head in my lap and looked up into my eyes...and my eyes gazed back as my fingers stroked ur face...i thought u could see right through me as love poured out of me..






and i was always the first to look away










if only u knew that wasnt becuase i didnt love u..
it was becuase i loved u too much and i didnt want you to see how weak u make me feel inside..












i built these walls to protect myself
and u took them down ..brick by brick..






i surrendered to u..






But u never knew it






and u wrote me off..
as I was writing u into my future..








i cant blame you though
it was foolish of me to assume you knew the thoughts that i often tried to deny myself..






all u wanted to know was that u werent waiting for me in vain..










i want to hate him...i want to fight him




he gets to cuddle u.................kiss u....hold u...



n i think of how bad i wanted u to just lie on my chest and make me feel like u were my baby...






how bad i wanted to kiss ur smile..






it wasnt even about the sex...i just wanted to be inside ur body...






but i guess its all water under the bridge now








i hope he's everything i could have...would have....should have been..














my heart is yours..if uve got somewhere to keep it...u still are..and always will..be my queen


















...x

Minute Man..

months...




weeks...




days....








Anticipation is a muthaf..


Distance held us apart for so long...


on the phone i tried to tell u how bad i missed u...


those nights when i screamed in my pillow..frustrated..longing for u..


u dont understand


or maybe u do...


but..






right now...


right here...


nothing between us but these clothes...




i wanna be gentle...
but i cant help but push u against the wall
.....as my lips joyfully reunite with urs..




Body Aching....for u...






Im kissing ur lips....
but i want to go past them and touch ur heart...


i close my eyes tightly cus i dont want to feel anything but ur lips against mine


my hands running all over ur body...


i want to take my time...i want to do u right...
make love to u like we've got an eternity..and not just one night


but as ur lips find mine again..i lose my mind..


i pick u up and put u on the table...my hands palming and squeezin ur behind


kissing ....almost like a frenzy...


body's full...longing to be emptied...




my hand on ur neck as i nibble and suck on ur lower lip..


my hands on ur breasts as my tongue flicks against ur nipples..


ur hands in my shirt...on my chest...my lips on ur neck...my tongue in ur ear...


ur panties around ur ankles...ur skirt up around ur waist...




as i bend u over the table..i can see ur lips inbetween ur thighs...wet and glistening...


its more than i can take..


ripping the rest of my clothes off...
..i put my hands on ur waist and pull u gently unto me
..as i stand hard and ready behind u...




wave ....after wave.... after wave ...of pleasure coursing thru my body...


i feel ur wetness surround me..pullin me in deeper...


and every inch of me ...i mean every inch of me...wants to spill my warm seed all over ur ovaries...




BUT....*thrust*... I ....*thrust*.....DONT...*thrust*..... WANT..*thrust*.... TO...*thrust*.. BE..*thrust*.. A ..*thrust*....MINUTE..*gasp*. ..MAN...


pleasure threatens to overwhelm me


ure hands are on the table...


now 1 of them is on the back of ur thigh....


now one of them is on mine..holding it as i stroke ur clit...


now its on ur breasts...


kissing ur shoulder blades...i feel my eyes rolling into the back of my head...




i cant..




i must...


i dont want to ...but i cant hold on much longer..


ure moaning "faster"...


as my hips pump behind urs...


ure biting ur fist...


i feel an orgasm moving through my body...


and i grab ur hips and piledrive u with the kinda speed that would put ur rabbit to shame..


as ur breasts jiggle and ur body starts to shake ...i hear u call my name


i cant hold it anymore...


my teeth close around ur skin...


i groan and shudder....as an orgasm thunders through my body


moments later as u lie in my arms..


mentally kicking myself for being so selfish...


i should have let u finish..


i feel u looking at me...and when i finally look down into ur beautiful eyes..


expecting disappointment...im suprised by what i see


in ur eyes i see affection...




in ur eyes i see satisfaction...


in ur eyes i see contentment




in ur eyes i see love..




u snuggle against me ..as ur fingers caress my chest...




i kiss ur hand...then i kiss ur lips...


a few more kisses later..my tongue is licking inbetween ur hips...

turned on by ur moans...i feel myself "rising to the occasion"


round 2


....3...

and maybe 4...

is how i show my appreciation


...x