Rollercoaster

The Highs..

Remember the butterflies?

the excitement..the realisation that in a world full of billions of people..

u had one to call...."All Mine"

Remember the latenight telephone conversations?

knowing u felt it, but wondering if this was the right time to say"I love u"

and the tingles of pleasure those words sent up ur spine..

Remember how it felt..that first kiss..

the desire u felt in ur belly as their fingers claimed ur body

that deep satisfaction words couldnt explain

Remember the pleasure a simple hug gave u

holding hands and looking into love filled eyes

ur name has been urs all ur life..but on their lips it was more than the same..

Cus u heard more than ur name...

U heard forever..

But all good things come to an end..

and u knew this cus u started to miss them even when u were together..

When Love hurts its the worst kind of pain

its like u dont live anymore..u exist..and nuthins the same..

The Lows..

Remember the fights?

The words u thot u meant but u really didnt

u just wanted to hurt them as much as they were hurting u

Remember wanting them

Needing them..but pride stopped u from calling..reaching out

Thots holding back sleep as u lay there..doubts..wondering if they still want u

Remember that text

"we need to talk"

The one u knew would come but still filled u with dread

Remember the moment u finally realised it was over

weeks after it ended..when ur heart finally gave up hope

and u felt like ur world ended and sometimes wished u were dead

Bittersweet memories..

Surfing the highs..u feel nuthin could be better

trapped in the lows..u feel nuthin could be worse

Love....Emotional Rollercoaster

Beautiful coin with two faces

one side a gift..the other a curse..

The greatest adrenaline rush..

strong enough to bring the bravest thrill seeker to their knees

The fall could break ur heart..

I remember the Highs..

I try but i cant forget the Lows

i really hate that part..

i want to find the courage to get back on again..

but i keep bitching out..

cus i dont think i have one more fall in me...

thats all i keep thinking about ...

so ill just sit back..and watch other people have all the fun..

and if anyone asks..ill say "maybe one day"..x