Broken Toy

Was i wrong for loving u too much?


Wanted to spend the rest of my life with u...






They say good things come to those who wait..


So i kept sleeping foolishly thinking this dream i was living in would come true...


















I saw the signs...but my heart lied to my mind...


I explained them away....




"Dont throw the baby away with the bath water"


I saw the lies..but i strained them away...


























the ones u told me...


And the ones i told myself...




Now ure done playing with me..


Like a broken toy u put me back on the Shelf...




















Sitting here in the dark..


Wondering why u didnt Love me...




Shadows of doubt in the dark...


Will anyone ever Want me?










Memories of how warm i kept u...


While u slept beside me...


And if u call me a fool...rightly so...


cus i would willingly go back with u...if u ever came back to find me..








But with nuthin but memories to keep me company


i sit here..in the dark..


Like a broken toy..


Singing Love songs to my broken heart


..x

Love-Hate..

U slap me...


U slap me again...


I never flinch...My angry gaze pierces urs...







U smack my arm...

I grab urs...

U try to wrestle me and end up on the floor...




Im right there beside u..

Pinning u to the floor with my body...


U try to buck me off..then u glare at me and whisper i hate u...i glare back and whisper...i hate u more...




My whispered words caressing ur lips as mine sweeten them with a kiss....

Ur hands push me...ur legs lock against mine ..but ur lips dont resist..


My tongue wrestles with urs..till ur body surrenders to me..as i take u on the floor...





Ur nails digging into my back..

Ur legs wrapped around my waist..

My body thrusting deep inside urs...



Each stroke makes u shudder..

Teeth meeting muscle as u bite my shoulder..my lips on ur neck making u wetter

Trembling thighs..muscles taut...as my body explodes..deep inside urs..





Stroking ur hair...as u stroke my face...

Lying naked in my arms..

Inbetween kisses again u whisper i hate u...but gazing in ur eyes..i see..in this moment...

....uve never loved me more...x

Broken Wings..

On the wings of ur Love..


I'd fly up to moon...


I was walking on air..


Floating down the street with hearts in my eyes...








When u held my hand...i swear i could leap over buildings that werent too large..


ud snuggle up to me..and put ur nose in my neck ..and ur hand in my chest ..u made me feel like the man in charge..


I was the luckiest man alive..then u walked out of my life..


my magic carpet was pulled out from under me...and i started to plummet from the sky..












for a moment i was stuck in mid-air..in a land called limbo..couldnt believe u were gone..


u got me goin thru each day ..eyes to heaven...searching for the sun..


eyes searching the clouds..beyond whom i once soared..


then everything came crashing down as u took the base out of my world..








i was a fool for building castles in the sky..


cus love paid my debt to gravity..


till ur love left me..gravity wrenched me back into reality..


face against the concrete...wondering where my wings went...and i realised i(t) was all a-loan










people walk past me...some stop..some point...most stare..


i dont even want to get up..i just want to lay there..




defeated..but i rise slowly to my feet..and keep placing one foot in front of the other..


taking nothing with me but lessons learnt..walking thru each day..till i find my broken heart a home...










But still sometimes...in quiet moments...i remember how it used to feel...


The highs...The Lows...strapped in beside u..ur body in my arms...ur smiling face mirroring mine


...On Love's Ferris wheel...


Forever isnt supposed to have an ending


ironically sht got real when u started pretending..








But i walk on...remembering once i used to fly...


Had to give back my wings when u said goodbye...


i keep placing one foot in front of the other..i walk on Alone..


taking nothing with me but lessons learnt..walking thru each day..till i find my broken heart a home...







..x

U havent had it in a while...

Ur bodys yearning for ur mans touch...

Ure lonely...u just had ur visitor..

and ur emotions are actin up...


U miss me...

I Miss u too...

I came home early for you..



U dont even wait for me to take my bags upstairs

U press ur lips and ur body against mine..

Making its requests... tellin me what u want me to do.. to u



Pushing u against the wall..

Pushing ur panties to the side..

lifting u unto me..

u gasp and ur fingers press into my back as i slide inside...


rocking u against me..

filling u up in the way uve been missing

ure dripping all over me..body shaking

as im thrusting..lips and bodies kissing




as ur body starts to shake

i lay u on the floor as ur ankles meet behind my back

hands on my bum pulling me in deeper

as the waves start to lap against u..body leaking like a tap




i feel u coming and i drill u with speed that would put a rabbit to shame..

u scream hits the air...and is quickly followed by my name...




ur eyes meet mine..and i know exactly how much u missed me..
n im glad im here...

i stroke the sweat of ur brow..dip my head and kiss u...
u wrap ur arms around me ...and i pick u up and u whisper to  me as icarry u up the stairs..

                 "Welcome home baby"


....x

Slow Dance...

Can't front...
ive been trying not to let u catch me staring...


watching u sway past me...
every thing on point from ur shoes to ur earings

Wow...


Gazing at u with hearts in my eyes..
disney love
I wonder what ur name is...

Surrounded by ur friends..but ur eyes always find mine..
dancing slowly and then lookin up at me as if to say "boi..dont u wanna claim this?"






i do..


u dont even understand how much...

watching ur lips purse as u sip ur drink..
biting mine ...longing for their touch..

*facepalm*




Walking over to u is the hardest thing..mind playin out different scenarios..wrestling with the fear of rejection
but..ur body's calling me..and its getting excellent reception

Close enough to whisper in ur ear..but as i start to speak..the dj plays ur song..i know this by the way u scream n grab me..
Following u unto the dancefloor..ignoring the butterflies doin the macarena in my tummy..tryn to act all cool and nonchalant..this performance wouldnt win a grammy..




The Music flowing through our bodies
My eyes close as your body moves against mine...


Lost in the melody..


Ur arms over my shoulders..
My lips on ur neck..sending tingles up n down ur spine..


I wish i could live in this moment forever..


Swaying to the beat...
such a pretty picture..and this dancefloor is our frame


the crowd gets inbetween us..
but i always find myself in ur arms..drawn to u like a moth to a flame..


In this moment...
Time stands still..


My hips grinding against urs..
the wall helping me hold ur body in place...
Ur face buried in my neck..breathin me in..
In my arms ure perfect..and when ur eyes find mine ..i melt under ur gaze..

 U smell so good..u feel even better..
i dont want to get carried away so i fight the urge to run my fingers through ur hair
i fight the urge to kiss u..


but as u tilt ur chin up...ur lips part as soon as they meet my gaze...and ur face looks up into mine
................i surrender..
my lips find urs..and ur body trembles against mine..
my hands cup ur face..and i just stand there and kiss u


ur hands on my chest...my hands gently cupping ur bum
one hand moves to the back of ur neck..playin in ur hair...as my lips move to the rhythmn of ur tongue


Something pulls u away from me..
and as we break away..i open my eyes..
and see those banshees u call friends..
dragging u Lord knows where..


biting my lip..i can still taste u...
damn that moment was everything...
standing in the middle of the music..i hope u come back..
all night i waited for u...right there...

Foolish i know..weeks pass i still think of u from time to time
and wonder what couldve been ..
then i bump into u out buying a bottle of rose wine...
its like something out of a movie scene..

one coffee...2 ice creams...and a walk later..
i let u go again..but this time with a kiss on the cheek and a promise to call ..

Watching u walk away..i cant help but feel this is the start of something beautiful..
a text comes in from u "i had a great time x"..my smile is threatening to break free from my face..i wanna type bk "i love u, marry me now"..but i type back "sure u did..LOL"


Thus began the most beautiful romance..


Happily Ever After started with a slow dance..


...x

Alone..

Sometimes i feel like its easier this way...
no one to hurt but me..

The Loneliness doesnt scare me anymore
dont even need misery anymore for company...

I miss being in Love..i really do...
that feeling that the world just exists for us two

waking up to a text...talking on the phone for hours..
feeling like noone understood me like u did...noone had a love like ours

those memories make me smile..even though my heart aches
but i tell myself..its for the best..atleast this way is safe..no more heartbreaks

So everytime anyone gets close..i bolt...and lock the door
told myself so many lies i dont even know what the truth is anymore

Wishing i could let myself connect on a level deeper than sex
telling myself ..its best this way..i dont want another ex

i feel like im my own enemy ..i dont even know how to get out of my own way
kneeling infront of u..my arms around  u..my head against ur stomach..i want to ask...no beg u to help me...but i know if i did,ud ask me how...and i wouldnt know what to say

so i walk away...cus i dont want to complicate ur life..
but all my heart yearns for is one to call my wife

ive loved and ive lost..
but that wont be the end of me..i need to let myself trust

cant keep running..

i dont want to end up Alone...

Nowadays...too many words have lost their meaning...cus too many people say things they dont mean..